The Power of Stories

Hello fellow story lovers! I hope you are having a marvelous week.  This post is going to be a little bit more personal than some of my others, but I would like to share this chapter of my life with you all.

I suffer from Primary Obsessive-Obsessive Compulsive Disorder as well as general anxiety.  I'm not sure how long I've struggled with this but it's been present for a very long time.  I am currently seeking treatment through therapy and medication.  I am taking this journey step by step and I know one day, this will be managed and no longer such an overwhelming part of my life.  

For a long time growing up I had a really naive attitude toward mental health.  I thought that aside from the well known disorders like schizophrenia, dissociative identity disorder, and amnesia that mental illness was something that one could just "get over." Meanwhile, I was struggling to get through each day without falling apart. I was constantly exhausted and overwhelmed and scared. I was so scared.  

Here is where the power of stories comes in. *Spoiler Alert* My husband and I were going through the television show Scrubs a few years ago and we got to the arc where Carla has her baby. We find out she is suffering from Postpartum Depression, but thinks it's just a case of the weepies and that she'll soon be fine. 

 Eventually her friends get together to help her out. Jordan, who went through PPD as well, basically tells her that it's just like any other illness and nothing to be scared of or embarrassed about. I mean you wouldn't refuse medicine for a cold or cancer, right? Mental illness is just that: an illness.  Seek help. Get medication if you need it. Do what you need to do to feel better. 

I think this scene is hilarious, and is somehow perfect in a otherwise emotional episode.

I had never thought about it that way. Why wouldn't I take care of myself when I'm feeling so bad? There is absolutely nothing to be ashamed of. I am ill and I need help.  So I sought help. After searching around a bit, I found a great therapist. Never be afraid to ask for help.  Let me tell you that this was one of the best decisions I've ever made.  My faith in God is stronger, my relationships are healthier, my attitude toward life in general is happier.  I have more joy than I did before I got help.  Now I still have some pretty crappy days and weeks but I'm learning how to manage them.  It's been a slow journey but I am actually moving forward rather than being stagnate.  Instead of cowering in constant fear, I am living life!  This blog and my bookstagram hobby are one way I've learned to express myself and like myself.  I'm proud of the pictures I take and proud of putting words to paper, even if the writing isn't great or the grammar may be incorrect.  Through my stories I hope to shine some light on someone's dark day. I hope to bring a smile to someone's face (even if they already have a megawatt grin). I hope to give you a little slice of happiness by sharing some of the things that make me happiest.  

While I could go into detail about each and every story that has been a tremendous influence to me, I'll just give you the short list:

• Scrubs TV Show
• The Hiding Place by Corrie Ten Boom (I learned so much from this book that I will have to do a blog post just about it so stay tuned)
• The Chronicles of Narnia by C.S. Lewis
• Anne of Green Gables by L.M. Montgomery and the CBC mini-series
• Harry Potter series
• North and South by Elizabeth Gaskell and the BBC mini-series
• The Young Victoria movie
• When Marnie Was There movie

There are many more that have helped me in so many ways, big, medium, and small.  Reading books and listening to stories in general just brings me so much joy. I want all of you to feel that joy as well, so thanks for reading this far and letting me share my story with you.

God bless and well wishes,

Cordelia M. Blythe

Book Review: Prisoner of Cell 25 (Michael Vey #1)

One of the best things about being a librarian is that I get to lead a book group. Between the members we choose a variety of genres within the Young Adult section from a pre-made list.  I've read a lot of books I wouldn't have chosen on my own, discovering a couple new favorites along the way.  

This past month we read Prisoner of Cell 25 (Michael Vey #1) by Richard Paul Evans.  I was intrigued when I read the synopsis because I'm usually a fan of science fiction, and this one was about teens with electric powers.  Overall, it read like "popcorn sci-fi," meaning I enjoyed reading it immensely, but it wasn't groundbreaking or original in it's content.  

What it did do well was capture my attention early on.  I was eager to find out what would happen next.  I also liked getting to know Michael. It was enjoyable seeing the perspective of a character who not only has "superpowers," but a syndrome I don't know much about: Tourette.  

Michael's friendship with Ostin was adorable, bromantic, and very sweet. I also liked that Taylor wasn't your stereotypical popular cheerleader type.  In fact, Evans was very good at making all his characters seem real.  By telling us the backstory of the bullies from the beginning of the book, both Michael and the reader felt more sympathy for and understood why these kids were the way they were.  After all, "walking a mile in someone else's shoes" is a great way to learn empathy and understanding.  

There wasn't too much I was disappointed in.  The prose was a little weak at times, and I would have liked a few of the characters to have been fleshed out more.  Additionally, the back and forth between first and third person was somewhat jarring and took me out of the story a bit.  I'm curious to see how he'll stretch this story into seven books.  There doesn't seem to be quite enough left for six more.  

Otherwise, it was a very enjoyable and quick read that hit the spot after some stories with heavier content.  If you are looking for lighter science fiction, or a young adult novel without gratuitous content than I would recommend this book to you.  I know a lot of times it can be hard to find something that you feel "safe" reading. While stories about the more difficult things in life can bring up some important conversations, occasionally one wants to read something enjoyable without the incredible emotional turmoil that can come from other stories.

As always, happy reading,

Cordelia M. Blythe 

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Book Review: Radiant Darkness by Emily Whitman

Good afternoon everyone!

I have another book review for you.  I recently finished Radiant Darkness by Emily Whitman.  

I really, really wanted to love this book.  I've been enjoying all the Persephone/Hades myth retellings I've been reading lately and this one looked very promising.  

While I enjoyed the read, I wanted it to be better. The characters were not very well developed. The relationship between Persephone and Hades needed more time given to it (especially when they were getting to know one another). We moved through the story way too fast.  Basically, everything felt very one dimensional. 

However, if you don't know the story of Persephone and Hades, I would recommend this as a great book with which to start.  Emily Whitman stays fairly true to and fleshed out the original story, though I wish she had gone a bit further.  You will have a better understanding of the original Greek myth if you read this, and I for one always revel in increasing my knowledge.  

For those that are looking for a lighter story without as much/any sex, drugs, foul language, gore, etc., than this is great for you.  There isn't really anything too dark, even considering it deals with the Greek god of death and the fallout from the famine that Demeter inflicts on the earth.  

In the end, I felt like I had read a lot of word but barely got anywhere.  The whole time I was thinking to myself, "Okay, here is where we are going to get into the meat of the story." But it never really happened.  As I said before, I did enjoy reading the book, but I was left wanting more.  More character, more story, and more life.  

  

Have you read this book? What did you think?

Happy Reading,

Cordelia M. Blythe

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Harry Potter...A Cure for Insomnia?

Happy Tuesday!  I hope your day is going as splendidly as mine.  If not, I hope that this post may at least brighten your day a little bit.

It's been a while since my last post and one of the reasons for that is because my insomnia has been acting up.  When that happens I am pretty much a wreck until I can get my sleep schedule back on track. I try everything when I can't get to sleep: pills, chamomile tea, counting sheep, etc.  You name it, I've probably tried it. Much of my insomnia is attributed to anxiety and racing thoughts. In order to counteract that I need something to focus on.  One of the best ways I've found to do this is to listen to an audiobook.  

I have a rather bittersweet story about how I discovered this.  I was away at an internship one summer and I received one of the worst phone calls I'll ever remember.  My mom had called to tell me that my Grandpa had died.  I was devastated.  I loved my Grandpa so much and I couldn't believe he was gone.  I immediately called my boyfriend (now husband) seeking comfort for my broken heart.  He talked on the phone with me for hours.  I was reluctant to hang up because I knew I'd just start sobbing again.  I didn't think there was any way I could fall asleep that night, I was so broken up.  As I was getting ready for bed he suggested reading to me over the phone to help me fall asleep.  He took out Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone and started reading. Sure enough I was able to fall asleep.  I was able to focus on his voice and on one of my favorite stories. I didn't think it was possible but I fell more in love with him then.  It's one of my fondest memories, in spite of the bad circumstances. 

I downloaded the audiobooks not long after that and began to listen to them on particularly bad evenings.  Jim Dale's voice is incredibly soothing. Additionally, because it is a story I already know but love hearing again, I am able to focus without getting caught up in needing to know what happens next.  

So if you have trouble falling asleep, I suggest trying an audiobook of your favorite story to help you. And, if you are worried about cost, be sure to look into Audiobooks or eAudiobooks from your local library. (You can keep the girl out of the library but you can't keep the librarian out of the girl.)  ;)

Happy Listening,

Cordelia M. Blythe

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Northanger Abbey: My Favorite Jane Austen Novel

Northanger Abbey is my favorite Jane Austen novel. Now some of you may be thinking, "Really?! Northanger Abbey?"  I know, I know.  This one doesn't get a lot of attention, but the main reason it's my favorite is because of the heroine, Catherine Morland.

Catherine is such a likable, realistic character with an imagination that tends to run away with her. Who of us hasn't read a book and imagined those scenarios happening in real life? Catherine is my favorite Austen heroine because she is so beautifully flawed. She is young, naive, kind, and generally tries to see the best in people. I love how she grows up through her experiences in this novel. I especially like how patient Henry Tilney is with her. While not the best of Austen's heroes (I'm looking at you Mr. Knightly), Henry absolutely loves Catherine in spite of her flaws and mistakes and that wins me over completely.  He also learns that, while not the villainous monster Catherine thought him, she wasn't completely inaccurate in her assessment of General Tilney. They are very well matched and adorable together.  Anyone else remember this sweet and awkward kiss from the movie with Felicity Jones and JJ Field? (sigh)

Catherine is also very loyal to her friends, and as I mentioned before, tries to see the best in everyone, even Isabella. She is loyal to Isabella until she is shown without a shadow of a doubt that Isabella is not a true friend to her. Additionally, I adored how Catherine and Eleanor were genuine friends. Catherine wasn't just seeking Eleanor's friendship because of Henry, but actually sought to get to know her regardless of developments with her brother. No matter what miscommunications or awkward moments occur, Eleanor never doubts their friendship for a second. 

I think this is my favorite Austen novel because I identify so much with Catherine. Growing up I felt so awkward and unsure of myself. I definitely let my imagination run rampant, but like Catherine, I tried my best to see the good in everyone and look at life with excitement and a sense of adventure. I too found a great partner in my now husband who drew me out of my shell and sought to get to know me and loves me flaws and all. 

Of course on a different day I may be more in the mood for Emma, Pride and Prejudice, or Sense and Sensibility. But I'll share my thoughts about those on another day.  

TTFN, Ta-Ta For Now,

Cordelia M. Blythe

-Original Goodreads Review: https://www.goodreads.com/review/show/1714001252?book_show_action=false

-IMDB for Northanger Abbey (2007): http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0844794/

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Chronicles of Narnia.....Best. Series. Ever.

I am a Narnia Nut!  I've read these books at least once a year since I was maybe 12.  As you can see from the picture my copies are well loved.  Every time I read these books I find something that I had either forgotten or hadn't noticed before.  

The Chronicles of Narnia was probably my first foray into the Fantasy genre.  It was a match made in heaven.  Thanks to Narnia I delved into the wonderful stories of new worlds, elves, centaurs, fairies, talking beasts, and other enchanting stories from around the world.  I began to read Tolkien, ancient mythology, and discovered the origins of some of my favorite classic fairy tales.  I always come back to Narnia though.  

Each book has given me hope in during different parts of my life.  I am especially fond of the quote, "Courage, dear heart!" Aslan speaks this to Lucy in a moment when she is petrified by fear.  She calls out to Aslan asking for his help and he not only shows them the way out of their terrifying situation but brings peace and hope with just one simple statement.  

As an obvious allegory to Jesus and his relationship with the world, these books have helped me in my spiritual journey.  I was able to identify with many different characters and the trials they experience.  I was given hope by the words Aslan spoke.  By seeing the relationship between all the different characters and Aslan, I was given an example of how my relationship with Jesus could be.  

I could probably write a 20 page essay on these books but I won't....at least not today. ;)  One of these days I will go through each book more thoroughly (not 20 pages I promise) and describe in more detail what makes each book so great.  Meanwhile, I just wanted to share my love of the wonderful world C.S. Lewis created.  

Happy Reading and God Bless,

Cordelia M. Blythe

 

This is my most recent Narnia acquisition is this fantastic coloring book featuring the original illustrations by Pauline Barnes.  Isn't it fantastic!?!

I Love Bookstores!!!

Hello, hello!

I know it's unusual to be this chipper on a Monday but I am having a fantastic day.  I have most of the day off so I've been able to use that time to work on some things at home that have piled up. Plus I finished another book and had a lovely walk today (also two cups of coffee).

Anyway,  last week I went to the bookstore for the first time in a long while.  As a librarian I tend to get most of my books from the library. Plus I don't usually buy a book unless I've already read it and/or love, love, love the author.  However I was looking forward to being surrounded by books at a place that wasn't work.

Since I'm trying to be thrifty and save money for more books, travel, and life in general I decided to visit Half Price Bookstore.  You guys, they have SO MANY BOOKS for SO CHEAP!  I mean, just check out the beautiful Young Adult section in the picture above.

Bookstores are also great for super fun niche stuff like this Beethoven Action Figure:

I came this close to buying it, but I was on the prowl for other things: really cheap paperback romances and/or fancy looking editions of Anne of Green Gables or Jane Austen.  There were a lot of different editions of both Anne of Green Gables and Jane Austen's works. I looked everywhere to find the best one. As luck would have it I found the best Jane Austen collection ever!
TA DA!!!!

Aren't they pretty!?!?!  I just couldn't resist!  Additionally I found a daily readings book by my favorite author C.S. Lewis.  I'm so excited to add this to my devotional and prayer time.  When I'm struggling with something spiritually I can usually find the answer in Lewis' writings.  

After the success of this trip it's going to be hard not to want to go back every week. I just remember that I am a librarian and can find a lot of what I actually want to read for free.  But if I love it you bet your bottom dollar that I'm adding it to my list for books to buy in the future.  :)

Happy Reading,

Cordelia M. Blythe